Monday -May 19th 2008-  will be my last day for a college classes. Actually, it should be yesterday, but one of my classes still left one more lecture, out of its original schedule but it’s OK. It has been four years I’m studying here, at ITB Biology Study Program. Many things passed with love, joy, angry, and sadness. Four years. It’s not a short time.

Let me remind my last four years activity. Actually, it’s not exactly four years, but more from mid August when I was accepted at the ITB, the most prestigious school in Indonesia. It was around 7 PM when I went to the internet booth by motorcycle with my closer friend, Dimas. He’s my closer friend since we studied at elementary school. We also studied at the same junior and senior high, also at the extra courses in Nurul Fikri Study Guidance (NF).

The internet booth located not far from our house. He drove. The accurate announcement about the acceptance was occurred at tomorrow morning via newspapers. But we were so anxious and want to know faster. So, check the announcement via internet was the fastest way to fill our anxiousness.

Exactly same with our assumption, other students also did that. The internet booth became so busy, made the operator used her computer for check the announcement. My turn came, and then I entered my number. Few minutes, then I read the appeared sentence at the monitor: Your participant number is not found on the list. Flash, my face became thicky. And Dimas was frozen on my side. I told him, this is what I’m worrying about, the technical error, in the case of my second choice study program had the low grade even with my worst ‘try-out’ score I would still could reach it. Furthermore, my exam –we called it SPMB- score counted at NF and other institutions is really-really more than enough for enter ITB Biology. Normally. Then I asked the operator to do it again. She did it again, and in the few minutes, the result appeared with different appearance: Congratulation, you are accepted at the study program with the exam code of 25—-. Twenty five. It’s the exam code for ITB. He was hugging me for my acceptance.

Ok. But when he entered his number, it appeared same as my first appearance. We tried it again, and again. Still same. Few minutes later, our mother (they are friend too, teach at the same junior high…actually where me and Dimas were) came together. Dimas looked sad, although his mother still smile and laugh to allay his sadness. But my mother was looked calm less. She treated Dimas as her son too, just like me.

I don’t know. Maybe because of my acceptance, I almost lost my control in front of him. Thanks for my mother who was reminding me. We went home calm, with the calm less heart and mind. We studied together for the last two years in NF (and I always deem it as my really-school, because my senior high really didn’t accommodate me enough. Believe me…). We went together to NF at the noon, and came home together at 8.30 PM every Saturday, also in the morning and came home before 1 PM at Sunday. Two times a week, four weeks a month, 10 months a year (sure not for the school end year: it’s closed), and we did it two years. He’s my twin!!

At 9 PM, my other friend, Jajang, called me. We spoke about the announcement. He was accepted at the program of Dutch Studies at the University of Indonesia (UI). After spoke with him, my other friend Maulana a.k.a Arran (hmm??) called me. Far before the exam, he was accepted at the Bogor Agricultural University or IPB at the Faculty of Veterinary via school report system, we called it PMDK. I didn’t take the system, and then my family really angry for that. What he knew, and what I was told him, that I was planning to choose IPB at the exam, not ITB. Actually, a lot of our friends choose IPB at the exam. I was really assured that I will be accepted at IPB, so we will meet again at that campus. That’s the plan we and our friends though.

“Hark, did you accepted?”

“Yeah, Alhamdulillah. I’m accepted at ITB Biology.”

“IPB Biology?”

“Not, ITB.”

“IPB???”

“Not! ITB!”

“I-P-B..?!?!”

“I-T-B..!!”

“NO WAY!! I’m alone here, because no one of our friends has accepted in IPB at the exam. No way!!”

And then I laughed cruelly…

(to be continued…Dimas has a different fortune for the next story…)

Since I’ve made this blog, I really busy even to write two or three sentences on this blog. It’s really hyperbolic, I know.

So, this few months forward, I will write many things, especially about my studies and research. I hope this would not be only a hope again.

Hmmm…..

This is my first post on the Biology Studies. And it seems nothing to tell beside my final project! Yeah, my final project…

I’m doing a project at the field of cognitive neuroscience. My core topic is visual perception on the brain. I’m using cat as my animal object and EEG (electroencephalography) for the analysis device.

Yes! It’s brain wave! I’m using brainwave as the research object. But the analysis I’ll use seems not to be the comparison of each with other brainwave types. I couldn’t found the database (or the comparative data) about the brainwave in cats. Human? Sure it has really much literatures.

As mammals, human and cat has a similarities in the brain structure. And sure, the structure similarities mean functional (or in biology, we call it as physiology, respectively) similarities too. I learned it from Dr. Andrzej Wrobel, a professor from Necnki Institute of Experimental Biology in Warsaw, Poland, via e-mail. He also gave me one of his papers, that really help me to design my research methods. Thanks, Professor!

Although the statement above could be used for my research, I prefer not to do it. It’s because the research using EEG in my department has never performed before. It means that I will be the first people who do this kind of research (ow yeahh…!!) and there’s no former experience as well as the former local literature!! Learn from these cases, I guess it would be better to do the analysis and comparison not by the type of brainwaves, but by the frequencies, amplitudes, and other data I’ll find. I’ll analysis and discuss the data without directed interpretations, as scientists often do in human (such as beta rhythm meant bla bla bla, gamma mean bla bla bla, etc). It will be really hard, I know. But I think the analysis would be better than if I compare the brainwave types while I don’t even have any source and reference of it. I hope…

Well, for the first, I guess that’s enough. I’ll write my next stories next time…

Have you? It’s just too hard for me to be alone, I mean, with no one rescues your heart. I feel it now. Tonight. It’s really hurt…

NICKLEBACK
“If Everyone Cared”

From underneath the trees, we watch the sky
Confusing stars for satellites
I never dreamed that you’d be mine
But here we are, we’re here tonight

Singing Amen, I’m alive
Singing Amen, I’m alive

[CHORUS]
If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
We’d see the day when nobody died

And I’m singing

Amen I, I’m alive
Amen I, I’m alive

And in the air the fireflies
Our only light in paradise
We’ll show the world they were wrong
And teach them all to sing along

Singing Amen I’m alive
Singing Amen I’m alive

[CHORUS (X2)]

And as we lie beneath the stars
We realize how small we are
If they could love like you and me
Imagine what the world could be

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
We’d see the day when nobody died

We’d see the day, we’d see the day
When nobody died
We’d see the day, we’d see the day
When nobody died
We’d see the day when nobody died

…………………………….

Hmmm,,this is my first review…

One things that I love from these words is the touching combination. Yeah, it’s an ordinary words, but, look at the means of this lyrics! It just remind me about many things happen in many countries and cities. If everyone cared, nobody fell on the narcotics, cried for their AIDS, slept with their hunger…

But this song is emphasized to the war. Yeah, let’s back to the recent wars. How much women and kids died? Are they the truly evil or only been a victims? That right, these theme obtain endless questions and take too much answers. Can you give it a question and answer it by your self?

How it’s going?!

Thanks for visiting my site. Enjoy and don’t be mind to send comments or messages. First, I wanna show you a music clip from Royksopp, Remind Me. Kind of daily-sci clip, really nice..